NEEDS HELP!

I need help for myself, pryer, as for me my life seems to be going great but at the same time I feel that there is something missing, I dont have the faith in God at all anymore, I believe in him, butpart of me is keeping me from being strong i faith and in knowing that god is there to help, I mss my boyfriend he is 900 miles away from me and dont get to see him till new year. Im gutted. He doesnt believe in god, he hates me smoking, drinking scaring, I dont want to be that person. I want to feel strong in the knowledge that faith is here but hey...it not happening.
Take care yall, bless you all...xx