NEEDS HELP!

I need help for myself, pryer, as for me my life seems to be going great but at the same time I feel that there is something missing, I dont have the faith in God at all anymore, I believe in him, butpart of me is keeping me from being strong i faith and in knowing that god is there to help, I mss my boyfriend he is 900 miles away from me and dont get to see him till new year. Im gutted. He doesnt believe in god, he hates me smoking, drinking scaring, I dont want to be that person. I want to feel strong in the knowledge that faith is here but hey...it not happening.
Take care yall, bless you all...xx

Prayer 3

I am and I forever will be in your shadow....Lord I pray that you can take away the pain and the suffering that is in my sole and that you will guide me in everything that I do, that satin will not win and that you are my saviour and Jesus died on the cross for our sins....We are forgiven before we even realise it. I believe in you Lord and I believe you are my guide, my father, my peace. God I pray that you bless those who are in the yahoo forums that I use and that you bless those who help me to find you again...Lord I am sorry that i step away from you, that I hide from you and that I dont look to you for the support and guidance that you so desperatley want to give me. I am sorry...I pray and see you as my father....the one who loves me not matter my sins...I love and care for the belief that you show and that you look after us no matter what we have done...Lord I am so blessed by you...Thank you God....AMEN

I would like for if you look at this that you will pray for my mind....I am lost at the moment and I am not looking to God for the answers. I am being treated by men as if i was a piece of dirt. I trust them and they fail to recognise that i get hurt by the things they say and do. I open up and then they leave and they say its not me...but it must be if it werent me they would stay around a while. I also suffer with depression badly and this time its just not seeming possible for me to get through it!
Please Pray for Me ALE x

Prayer 1

Dear God, I pray that ypu will guide me in what ever I do. I pray that you will be with me every step of the way as I go through many life chaging experiences. I pray that you will be with me as I change medication, that you will be there with me when I am at work and going through so many tough issues and as I get with Garry that you are in my heart and that you will guide me in the steps with Garry. Lord I pray that you will also be there with people while they for someone to help them in their troubles, Amen